giving up the ghosts

This is the first morning i've really just sat in front of my computer with my coffee and had nothing. I just stared for what seems like hours. Nothing. Well that's not entirely true. I just don't want to face the nothing. Deep breath.

Last night i ran into a couple of old ghosts. Ghosts of people i used to date. Ghosts of things i say to myself sometimes. To me, a ghost is anything in your present that reminds you of your past--for better or worse. I caught glimpses of remnants of the life i planned for myself. The life i thought i wanted for myself.

I saw someone i was in a relationship with about two years ago. Ghost. He hugged me as i thought to myself: Time does help in the healing process.

I met someone that planned her life out the same way i had--with the same person i'd planned it with. I never knew about her. Ghost.

Past hurts showing up in your present. Ghosts. They can paralyze us. They can take over and absolutely stop us from being in the present. Living in the present. So we have a choice to make. Let God come into the empty places. Let Him contend with the ghosts. The hurts. The past. The dreams we had. The heartache we feel. And keep going.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

The time has come to give up the ghosts.