she's come undone

You know the feeling. Nothing in your world seems right. You don't really know up from down. You come to the realization that you aren't in control. You have to let go of the notion of having it all together. Yikes.

Maybe it's a good thing to reach what feels like the bottom. Because it's in our weakness that we are forced to reach out to God and ask Him to come in and fill the empty places. The sad places. Even the dark and messy places. Maybe the bottom is a chance for a new start.

Maybe--just maybe--it's okay for us to come undone. How else do we know the magnitude of all that He is until we have reached the end of all our earthly strength--the bottom. The emptiness. What if He doesn't mind it when we come unhinged. It's the chance for Him to come in and show what He is capable of in our weakness.

See, the Sovereign Lord comes with power

and his arm rules for him

See, his reward is with Him

and His recompense accompanies him.

He tends his flock like a shepherd:

He gathers the lambs in his arms

and carries them close to his heart

Isaiah 40:10-11

He comes with power. He gathers the lamb in his arms. Close to his heart.

Makes me want to weep.

Look at how great He is in our weakness. Look at his greatness when we discover we must have utter dependence on Him. Just Him.

Maybe like you, i've had these carefully laid plans for my life. I thought my life was going in a particular direction. It was all according to MY plan. Well, let's just say that the course has most certainly changed. I don't know where my life is headed any more. I don't know where i'll be living or where i'll be working in just a couple of short months. He tends his flock like a shepherd. Okay. He's got this.

Letting go is going to be the hardest part of this whole blogging process--this whole pursuit of the "fuller" life. Letting go and proclaiming that He is sufficient. He is in control. So maybe it's okay if i've come a little undone. He carries me close to His heart.