Jesus is reading my blog :)

It's true. Ofcourse He knows my every thought before i think it, but today was a reminder of that.

I was in church this morning and the worship leader began with a song about God being alive and roaring like a lion. I thought that was pretty cool because i just wrote about the Lord telling me to paint a lion. He's teaching me about His character through the picture of the lion. Gentle. Fierce. But then the worship leader said something that hit me like a ton of bricks. "The Lion of Judah is coming into this place right now." That was for me. The tears started.

Then the second song. It was about rain. I've written about the rain here. The downpour kind of rain and the sweet rain. It was amazing to sing of the rain. I felt the rain. The good kind. The tears continued.

Another ongoing theme of my blog has been emptiness. I want to empty out my life to make more room for the Lord. Emptiness can be good in that way. I've also written about the empty that is sad and dark and that maybe it's okay to become undone and empty so that He can come in and take over. One of the pastors came on stage and shared scripture that's essentially about emptiness. It's out of 2 Kings 4. It's the story of a widow who is facing impossible circumstances. Elisha comes to her and asks how he can help--he asks her what she has in her house. She says that she just has a little bit of oil. Elisha tells her to go to all of neighbors homes and gather up empty jars. Then Elisha said "Fill up all of the jars with oil." There was more than enough. He then instructed her to go and sell the oil to pay all of her debts and ultimately save her sons from having to go into slavery. The widow had nothing left to save her family--that's when God sends Elisha in--into the emptiness--into the nothingness--to create a miracle for her family. The pastor then said "You see? The Lord is drawn to our emptiness. Look at what he can do when we come up empty."

The Lord is drawn to your emptiness.

Tears still.

After the sermon, the pastor began praying and then said something else that struck me. To preface, i've written about how i have no idea where i'm going to be working or living in a couple of short months. I'm applying for job after job daily. So the pastor begins praying and says "If you're looking for a job and you aren't hearing anything, realize that this is actually a sweet season. It draws you closer to Himself." Okay, Lord. I'll take it.

See what i mean? The whole service felt like it was for me. The Lion of Judah, the rain, the emptiness, the job.

Isn't he faithful?