...for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

I think i need an attitude adjustment. 

Maybe because i am not a morning person.  Maybe because i just got into a fight with my printer (and i think it won).  Maybe because i have found i am not a summer person.  It's July and i'm already thinking about Fall.  I am about to start counting down the days until Fall begins.  I've grown disenchanted by the current season.  Maybe the current season in my life.  I am literally living for the Fall. Why? Well, besides the obvious--it's felt like 125 degrees outside until yesterday--it's because i feel i come alive in the Fall.  And quite frankly, it's been one long, hot summer.  So this is me, the same girl that says i don't want to wish my life away.  I am wishing the summer away.

I miss the crisp air, apple cider, anything pumpkin, cozy sweatshirts, boots, jeans, the leaves---just all of it.  I miss the way i feel when the leaves are on the ground.

Shake it off, Susan.  The Fall will be here soon enough. 

It started raining this week and with the rain has come cooler temps and relief from the madness that is this heat.  You know how i love to blog about rain.  Yesterday it got really dark in the afternoon and the sky looked threatening.  I thought about how dry and hot it's been outside and this verse came to me:

O God, you are my God, earnestly i seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. Psalm 63:1.  And i really felt it in my spirit--the longing for God.  I am thirsty for more of Him in my life.  I am longing for Him to come and send rains to the dry and discouraged parts of my heart.

Have i not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you may go. Joshua 1:9. 

I think that God loves it when we come to the end of ourselves so that we have no other choice but to lean on Him. I think He uses our discouragement or our disappointments to teach us how to better look to and depend on Him.  I think when we come to Him with what little we have and say--"Okay, it's your turn.  Do what you will." That is the moment that looks like surrender.  THAT is the moment He sends the rain so that new life might spring up.

In the midst of our weakness, He is strong.  He is steady.  Constant.  And He will bring the Harvest--it's just that sometimes we have to experience the dry season before the rains come. We have to have faith that the journey and the struggles.....will all be worth it in the end.