[Brace self for coffee induced ramblings]
So i started to feel drained yesterday. Emotionally, physically, you name it. Tired of the tedious parts of my job this week. Tired. Just tired. When i'm tired of giving, it's a cue that it's time to give to myself. But how do you learn to give to yourself in healthy ways when your history suggests the unhealthy ways are 'more fun'? Perhaps easier?
You do what is uncomfortable (see entry below). Yet nurturing. You do what is unfamiliar in hopes of getting a different result. You get off the path. Out of the comfort zone. I recently blogged about my time in Saluda, NC. I went up there by myself, sat in a tiny chapel, and was just fully present...fully there. (For someone with ADD, this is not the most comfortable thing.) But the rewards were immeasurable. Incredible. Get off the path. Soak up the unknown. Nurture yourself.
I got back from a busy weekend in Columbia on Monday morning. I was exhausted all day. Just wanted to go home and crash. But i didn't. I went to church monday night which is not my usual choice when i'm tired. I got to worship and rest and catch up with a friend. Priceless Monday night that i would have missed if i'd decided to go home and crash early. Do something different.
You find the simple pleasures in life. For me, this week, it's been coffee. Simple, right? Not just any coffee. Today i am treating myself with blueberry coffee. Because it's amazing. (greenmountaincoffee.com/coffee/wildmountainblueberry....Look into it.) ;) It makes me happy. I had coffee last night with a sweet friend at my favorite coffee shop in town. Sunday night, i had coffee with my dear friend Laura. I never thought coffee would be such a source of pleasure in my life. You know how they say food brings people together? Well, in my life, coffee brings people together. love that.
Blogging. I'm trying to be more consistent with it. I'm completely blown away that there are people who actually take the time to read my ramblings. It's therapy for my soul. I can put my thoughts out here on the internet for anyone to read and now, i'm okay with it. I was terrified of what people would think when i first started blogging back in February. But maybe, just maybe, there are others in similar stages of life that may be encouraged through my thoughts. Do something different.
I got a haircut. I usually put those off for as long as possible, but i wanted to take care of myself. I did something a little different. I got bangs. And i love them. (Note: i'm not really telling you to go get bangs, i'm just saying, do something that scares you a little. Something different. Doesn't have to be with your hair. )
I rented a truck on Saturday for a couple of days. (long story). A huge Dodge Ram. And i loved it. I've never been a truck person, but now i want to trade in my car for a gigantic truck. (No real reason to share that other than i think it's cool. :))
I'm run/walking a different path in my neighborhood. So simple. Do something different.
I'm getting off my comfortable path. Have i perfected this? Nope. Will i ever? Nope. But, you see, i'm trying to become the healthiest version of myself that i can possibly be. I want to be the person God created me to be. I don't want to cloud or complicate that person with old, unhealthy behaviors. So i'm trying to keep it simple. Putting one foot in front of the other....into the unknown. Perhaps for the first time in my life. Without fear.
I find rest in knowing that even when i grow tired and weary, the Lord doesn't. He knows what He's doing in my life. Katie shared this verse with my this morning---Isaiah 40:28--He will not grow tired or weary. His understanding no one can fathom. Sweet Grace. Grace through the times when i don't understand what He's doing in my life. He knows what i'm going through. He gently guides me along His path. And i mess up every single day. But i'm so thankful for His Grace. His understanding. The cool thing is, i feel less tired and weary when i recognize and proclaim that He is worthy. He understands. And He's NOT weary. Today, just today, i choose to walk in His Grace.
So i started to feel drained yesterday. Emotionally, physically, you name it. Tired of the tedious parts of my job this week. Tired. Just tired. When i'm tired of giving, it's a cue that it's time to give to myself. But how do you learn to give to yourself in healthy ways when your history suggests the unhealthy ways are 'more fun'? Perhaps easier?
You do what is uncomfortable (see entry below). Yet nurturing. You do what is unfamiliar in hopes of getting a different result. You get off the path. Out of the comfort zone. I recently blogged about my time in Saluda, NC. I went up there by myself, sat in a tiny chapel, and was just fully present...fully there. (For someone with ADD, this is not the most comfortable thing.) But the rewards were immeasurable. Incredible. Get off the path. Soak up the unknown. Nurture yourself.
I got back from a busy weekend in Columbia on Monday morning. I was exhausted all day. Just wanted to go home and crash. But i didn't. I went to church monday night which is not my usual choice when i'm tired. I got to worship and rest and catch up with a friend. Priceless Monday night that i would have missed if i'd decided to go home and crash early. Do something different.
You find the simple pleasures in life. For me, this week, it's been coffee. Simple, right? Not just any coffee. Today i am treating myself with blueberry coffee. Because it's amazing. (greenmountaincoffee.com/coffee/wildmountainblueberry....Look into it.) ;) It makes me happy. I had coffee last night with a sweet friend at my favorite coffee shop in town. Sunday night, i had coffee with my dear friend Laura. I never thought coffee would be such a source of pleasure in my life. You know how they say food brings people together? Well, in my life, coffee brings people together. love that.
Blogging. I'm trying to be more consistent with it. I'm completely blown away that there are people who actually take the time to read my ramblings. It's therapy for my soul. I can put my thoughts out here on the internet for anyone to read and now, i'm okay with it. I was terrified of what people would think when i first started blogging back in February. But maybe, just maybe, there are others in similar stages of life that may be encouraged through my thoughts. Do something different.
I got a haircut. I usually put those off for as long as possible, but i wanted to take care of myself. I did something a little different. I got bangs. And i love them. (Note: i'm not really telling you to go get bangs, i'm just saying, do something that scares you a little. Something different. Doesn't have to be with your hair. )
I rented a truck on Saturday for a couple of days. (long story). A huge Dodge Ram. And i loved it. I've never been a truck person, but now i want to trade in my car for a gigantic truck. (No real reason to share that other than i think it's cool. :))
I'm run/walking a different path in my neighborhood. So simple. Do something different.
I'm getting off my comfortable path. Have i perfected this? Nope. Will i ever? Nope. But, you see, i'm trying to become the healthiest version of myself that i can possibly be. I want to be the person God created me to be. I don't want to cloud or complicate that person with old, unhealthy behaviors. So i'm trying to keep it simple. Putting one foot in front of the other....into the unknown. Perhaps for the first time in my life. Without fear.
I find rest in knowing that even when i grow tired and weary, the Lord doesn't. He knows what He's doing in my life. Katie shared this verse with my this morning---Isaiah 40:28--He will not grow tired or weary. His understanding no one can fathom. Sweet Grace. Grace through the times when i don't understand what He's doing in my life. He knows what i'm going through. He gently guides me along His path. And i mess up every single day. But i'm so thankful for His Grace. His understanding. The cool thing is, i feel less tired and weary when i recognize and proclaim that He is worthy. He understands. And He's NOT weary. Today, just today, i choose to walk in His Grace.
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