Without Fear

Word of the day: gumption: \GUHMP-shuhn\; noun
1. initiative; aggressiveness; resourcefulness
2. courage; spunk; guts

My friend Patti just impressed me by using the word "gumption" in a sentence this morning. (go Patti!) If you've seen the movie "The Holiday" then you know this word for sure. ;) Anyways, it got me to thinking. Do i have gumption? You know what? YES. I do. I didn't know that i have it, but i do. I've got courage. Sometimes i've got spunk. And Lord knows, i've even got guts. Sometimes, just saying goodbye takes gumption. Saying goodbye to old behaviors, unhealthy people in our lives, the past, whatever. Gumption. Look into it. :)

Reminders of the past were surrounding me this week. I felt triggered. I felt weak and wanted to fall back into old behaviors. I'll admit it--I slipped a little bit. But that's when we have to get back up, find our GUMPTION and keep on going. Stay focused. Stay on track. Let go of the past.

Hmm. Let go of the past. Perhaps, let go of the people in our pasts. I was reminded of a breakup i went through earlier this year. One of the hardest things of my life. My friend Patti is giving me a ton to think about this morning--she gave me a quote that i love and i can't stop reading:

Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. Rather it makes me realize that if i wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how wonderful it will be when the right one comes along.

Sigh.

Gumption. Gumption to get back up and keep going. Gumption--courage--guts--to know that there is more out there than i know. I choose to have the gumption to believe that God is real and He has a plan for my life. A wonderful plan and a purpose. If only i'll have the gumption to believe it. To keep going. Without fear.

Psalm 118:6 The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.