Peace....

I'm a little sleep deprived since Sophie has started sleeping in the bed with me, so forgive the following ramblings...

I'm having a good week. Not perfect week...but pretty dang good. Yesterday my boss comes in and hands out bonuses for everyone for NO reason. Some opportunities have come my way this week, and i'm just happy. Feels good.

I'm especially excited this week about going apple picking in North Carolina this coming weekend with some pretty amazing ladies. I've never done it before. It's not something i ever thought i would be excited about doing. But it's fall, and with the fall comes the hope of new things. (I think this is supposed to be something reserved more for Spring (think Easter)....but for me, the fall just breaths new life into me.) Since i've chosen not to drink during this season in my life (not sure how long this will be...but doesn't really matter), it's amazing the things i have time to do---the new interests that have captured my attention. Also. Knitting is one of those hobbies i thought was reserved for old ladies with 13 cats. But i met a new friend recently that knits the most beautiful scarfs. And i think i'm going to learn how to do this, because in the fall and winter, i tend to live in scarves.

So why am i bothering to tell you about these things? Because i think it's important to focus on HEALTHY behaviors and healthy coping skills. I think it's important to be a more interesting person than the story you can tell about your wild friday night (ouch). I feel like God is taking alot of my old behaviors away and replacing them with things that leave me feeling more peaceful than i could have ever dreamed. And isn't that what we're really seeking? Peace? Who doesn't want more peace in their lives? I know a little about some of your stories, and i'm thinking you can relate to this. Maybe it's a sign of growth. Maybe maturity. Maybe waking up to real life. I'm not sure.

But i am sure that i've found it. Peace. And not every moment of every day. Not even close. But an internal sense of "it's going to be okay...all is well. " It comes when i relinquish my control and hand it over to the One who is truly in control.

Psalm 34:14--Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.