Ugh. It's hard to do that isn't it? It's hard to love those that push us away. It's hard to love those that keep their walls up. Those that have hurt us. Those that have caused us great pain. Those that are not sensitive or compassionate with us or to our needs. Well. We love anyway. We keep going. Because, you see, we don't deserve the love we get from our heavenly Father. But He loves us anyway. Regardless of what we've done. Regardless of who we've become. He shows us a Grace that we don't even deserve. So who am i to withhold love from others who don't deserve it?
So, He's teaching me about Grace. He's showing me how to give when i don't feel like it. How to love when I--in my flesh--don't want to. Cause let's face it, i don't want to all the time. I'm not good at doing it anyway when my heart isn't in it.
There have been about 3 things that have happened this week where i've had to practice grace. One of these things deals with hearing from an old coworker that used to be so mean to me. She treated me poorly for reasons i'll never know. But i suspect she was hurting and broken and handled her feelings by treating me in such a way that i felt so disregarded. So uncared for. Well i reached back out to her--i decided i want to love her the way Christ does. Bitterness is something that longs to take root in our souls and take up residence. Anger wants us to stay angry. It takes more courage, more energy, more gumption to show love and compassion. To love the broken. To love those that must be hurting more than we'll ever know.
Today i pray for the willingness to love those who have hurt me. To love them with such mercy and grace that it could only be from the Father.
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