no not one

I woke up this morning to such a sweet sweeping of grace over me. Peace. I felt like God was breathing new life into me. I was overcome with the sense that He wants so much more for me than i even do. You see, He is jealous for his own. He hasn't forgotten about me. And i think there have been moments in the last few months where i have felt abandoned. I don't know if there is a darker place than the place where you feel forgotten about. Left. Alone.

He's showing me, even through my blogging, that He is able. He is able. He is able to mend my broken heart. He's doing it. I have this sense this morning that He is near...that He hasn't left me at all. He's getting me ready. Today i long for what He has in store. If just for today, i want to live fully in the present. I'm so tired of reliving and rehashing the past.

I opened up to the Psalms this morning and found some notes that i had written during a sermon on the 23rd Psalm. It's about walking through the valley of the shadow of death and fearing no evil because He is with us. He is there to comfort us. I wrote, " Who our shepherd is should determine our reaction; it is not our circumstances that should determine our reaction." He is our shepherd. I get so focused on my circumstances that i forget that He is the shepherd. As believers...as sheep... our only real job is to know our shepherd.

Lord, i choose hope today. I choose trusting you over my circumstances today. I ask for a continued sense of peace today. I've never known a greater love than yours, Father. No, not one.