A time to tear and a time to mend

Ever have the feeling that the canvas of your life is tearing? I do. Sometimes i feel like life is a series of things in my life that are being torn down. Let me explain. I just went through a breakup. A good breakup. (is there such a thing?) A God-orchestrated breakup. (more on that later.) Has it been hard? Absolutely. Is God teaching me alot through it? Ofcourse. It's still raw. It still hurts some days. And by hurting i mean that it feels like i can hardly breathe some days. Ever felt like that?

Well, God showed me in Ecclesiastes this week that there is a time for everything under heaven. Everything. The tearing down--sure. But there is hope because of the rest of the sentence. There is a time to mend. Jesus is showing me that He can mend my broken heart. He can take the torn canvas and make it new. Not only that, but He tells us in Romans that he works everything together for the good of those who love Him. And like my mom has told me...life will be good again.

I've been angry at God. Seems like a taboo thing to actually admit. But yes, i've been angry. This is not the life that i would have picked out for myself. But even though there is pain, there is still hope through the suffering. God is still good even when i don't feel Him. Even when i'm angry with him because things didn't turn out my way.

But i'm encouraged and hope you will be too. God is still God no matter the circumstances in my life. He is still good. He is a God that has been aggressively chasing me down so that i might grow closer to Him. That i would stop running. And start letting Him mend me.